#i think there's something wrong with me

[the-sketches-lair]

Half-transformed Luchino sketch from the beginning of the year. He's just my favorite, even if he's not my main.

[butterflieswhisper]

hiiii ^^ beastlife fishie analysis. spoilers ahead. etc etc

okay so. the main point of this is simple. I don't think the salmon head cursed c!fishie. Explaining that is the harder part I think. also i'm going to refer to the salmon head thing in e5 as "the incident" from here on out because frankly i think it's funny

Let's start with the incident. The big day. etc. What happened? Why did it happen? Obligatory third questioning statement? Well. She was gifted the salmon head for her birthday by kiwi(or like. someone in the kiwibird system. -bird system. the birds). Immediately upon receiving it she relives parts of season one and fishie herself doesn't really acknowledge it. The other players definitely notice but im not caught up enough in any other pov yet to like have thoughts on that I'll come back to that point someday. Fishie seems shaken, sure, but she moves on so quickly, especially considering what happened just there. 37 seconds of standing frozen, unresponsive. she recovers in 5 seconds. And seeing how she reacts later on to realizing the memory situation--if she was aware that happened, she would probably be concerned by it. She puts it on for a brief second at the end of the party and takes it off immediately. She's otherwise normal -- well. as normal as she is otherwise up to that point. Because that is also how she acts with pretty much any salmon head, even just kiwi herself.

I raise: Episode one, about 8:20 in. The slow zoom on kiwi as the static overtakes every other noise. This is the *exact* same behavior displayed when fishie receives the salmon head, albeit without actual concrete old video footage style flashbacks. In episode two (28:55ish) the same thing happens when she looks at the salmon head in moch's house, but this time there is technically a flashback -- kiwis grave. Fishie moves on immediately and doesn't acknowledge her behavior at all, and, seeing as it is fishie, im inclined to believe that means she does not know she is doing it. Fishie (when alone) will discuss all of her problems in immense, and usually misguided detail (bestie i promise kiwi doesn't hate you???) to the audience and/or herself. I mean she's not alone in episode one, and it is technically presession, and i guess getting struck by lightning is a decent distraction from your problems, but in episode two? She is completely alone. There is nobody with her. She went looking for moch and moch is not there. She still doesn't acknowledge the fiveish seconds she is completely frozen. This happens again and again with kiwi and salmon heads.

And then that leads you to e5. The incident. She's. well. she's doing worse. 0:50. "This will distract me if i leave it up." This is the first mention from fishie herself about how fucking weird she's being, and even then she doesn't seem concerned. I think she does not realize she's being so so incredibly weird about it. If the static and freezing is what's referred to as "distraction" then keeping it in her inventory makes it worse actually so it wouldn't really make sense unless the way it is distracting her is NOT the. well. whatever the fuck is wrong with her (affectionate). After she puts the head on there's the static all the time but for a short brief amount of time she's like significantly more normal and i don't really know if that means anything i just think it's really funny.

And then we all know what goes on during the incident i'm not analyzing this video frame by frame. um. i could. but i am not going to right now. And then she has the conversation on the table with kiwi where she like is normal for 5 minutes. Like genuinely the most. i guess stable? fishie's thought process is is like in the moments directly after the incident. She is immediately understanding with the antikiwi situation, they come to an agreement that they're like. okay now. "thank you for everything and im so sorry i couldnt do more" / "it was short, but it was nice" "i knew what i was getting into when i married you" etc etc and then they kind of rush it at the end because people won't stop dying. But then fishie is fishie and takes it in the complete opposite extreme (from. um. whatever was wrong up until now. to "oh kiwibird must secretly hate me because" and then there's no real good reason she's just like that) and it's also an issue. And i think the season two memory thing is also a part of that but this is so long already and so i'm not going to get into it rn. So bringing all of this back to my original point: the salmon head was not the cause of the curse(?) because she's been so weird all the time forever and the salmon head thing was just like. an effect. of whatever went Wrong(tm) in the season transition. like the head was a vessel to Be Worse about it but i feel like it would have worked with any salmon head she got her hands on and that it happened to be kiwico was a coincidence and also that the head wasn't cursed at all there's just something deeply wrong with fishie s3 in general and uh yeah 👍

I'm so sorry this is so disjointed i had a thesis statement and everything. alas

[painted-lemon]

IM CRAVING SOME HEAVY ENOCH O'CONNOR ANGST

Preferably where he gets injured or dies or something

BUT I CAN'T FIND ANY

[insane-thoughts-oftheday]

Oh boy, I don't know if it's a vision of been a aroace (demiace, gray-aro maybe) person interfering in my life, but damn, I feel like i want crying sometimes when I watch/read romance movies/books, especially comedies, because I keep thinking if there's something wrong with me, like I know that if someone had a crush on me (even that is difficult because I'm completely outside the beauty standard) it would be difficult for me to reciprocate the feeling, but damn I wish I could feel loved to the point that someone would serenade me, i wanted to be loved and be able to love back, I wanted to exchange emails or letters with secret names, I wanted to have inside jokes and references to life, I wanted to give and receive flowers or handmade gifts, hell, I even wanted the fights and difficult conversations that every relationship has, but I simply can't have reciprocity in life because most of the time I'm the one who likes people who don't like me in the same way. I feel like I'm not worthy of being loved or of being able to return someone's love.

[handweavers]

I love when I reach the point with any textile technique or process where I can mentally visualize all of the threads or fibres and exactly how they relate to one another and within space and can like. move threads around in this mental image and rearrange them and add the loom mechanisms to this mental image until I've perfectly recreated exactly how it all fits together mechanically to create the cloth as like a Visual Render in my head idk it's hard to explain but the feeling when I do that gives me a sensation in the back of my skull that I think is similar to what people talk about with ASMR . sitting in silence while mentally shifting threads around in my mind and dressing the Loom that exists in my head until I understand exactly how to weave something. I can picture it so clearly it's like I'm looking at it in real life and I have a full 360° view in all directions. spinning the image around in my head. I can do this with knitting and crochet and other things too like anything thread/string related I can do it

[beezobop]

I am so sorry

[habitual-creatures]

(( honest fucking mood right now.

I refuse to explain in true detail. but THEY fucking GET IT. ))

[iqmmir]

Adding <3 after saying idiot because i dont think you are all idiots . And i love you

[sound-traveller]

hi everyone is it normal to have 3 or more self-inserts for the same fandom

[quietintellectualginger]

for a long time death has been peaceful to me. I don’t know why, and I don’t know when I stopped being scared of it; I know it scared me when I was little. I remember crying late one night because I was picturing people I know dying. But now the worst part about death is feeling like I have to pretend to be sad about it, and feeling like shit for not actually feeling anything.

also just admitting this makes me kinda scared people are gonna think I'm a monster.

[yourplasticpal]

I thought I was sad about the idea of poor Crowley haunting the bookshop, teaching Muriel how not to sell any books to anyone ever under any circumstances, desperately clinging to the echoes of Aziraphale's presence in their place ... but then I wondered what if, under new management, Crowley's invitation is revoked?

Muriel would never - even in their ignorance they couldn't be so cruel - but Metatron sure the fuck would. Maybe even before the elevator doors were closed.

[p1xel-ra1nb0w]

sometimes I feel like I don't fit in anywhere.

[thathollyjollyguy]

bro is trying way too hard to be me 😒

[ashychangeling]

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When i tell you this man makes me feral. He's so hot Im gonna die. He's literally always shirtless in skits and i know it's to be funny but omg 🥵 🩲💦

His tiktok

[capriciouswrites]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Game of Thrones (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Oberyn Martell/Sansa Stark, Arya Stark & Sansa Stark Characters: Arya Stark, Ned Stark, Catelyn Tully Stark, Doran Martell, Ellaria Sand Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - Pre-Canon, Pre-Canon, Alternate Universe - Magic, Prophetic Visions, Arranged Marriage, Pre-Relationship, Unreliable Narrator Series: Part 9 of shall i compare thee to a may day crashing on a mountain top? Summary:

Ned has to cover his mouth as Arya approaches the head table in the hall. He’s impressed with her patience, she’s waited for all of the other petitioners to go before her, even though he’s sure all of them would’ve willingly let her step before them.

“Fa—Lord and Lady Stark,” she corrects herself and offers a shaky bow, and Ned coughs to cover the noise that Cat makes so that their youngest daughter doesn’t get offended.

He waves a hand through the air, inviting her to continue.

She straightens to her full hight and does her best to look serious, hands folded behind her back but clearly more to stop herself from fidgeting than anything else. “I would like to be granted permission to — uh — to,” Jon and Robb and Theon are off to the side and one of them coughs into their fist and she continues, “attempt a vision quest in the Godswood. Er, please.” 

[confusedpandabear]

A little light bondage on Gou?🥵 She needs try the same on Haru too. Don't want either of them to feel left out ;)

OF COURSE, I need Haru going absolutely feral because he can't touch her ahhh.

Alas, I'm thinking about cutting this sex scene out because the chapter is getting too long AGAIN. But we'll see how it reads.